-- David’s Story --

So this is my beautiful son david...

I should say handsome, I guess.

This is a really tough story for me to tell, but I really want to make a difference so I'm sharing it with you...

What does a mother tell you about a son lost. 

How do I help you understand David ... he was the most loving young man I have ever met. David left this life with very little because he gave everything away..

You see things didn't matter to David.  People did.  His family and his friends.

David will always be 29 because in February of 2015 he completed a suicide.

David was staying in my home, while I was away. David shot himself, and now he is gone.

Gone, his goofy laugh, his silly smile, his curly hair, his love for everyone around him. 

When I left David that weekend to house sit he seemed okay. I had no idea what I would come home to that Monday night...

I came home, hurrying in and out of the house .. annoyed that David didn't get up and come help.  Then I went in and touched his body to wake him... and he was so cold.  

Gone.

All I know is that I want him back. I want to hold him and touch him and buy him Mountain Dew - and even cigarettes. I hated that he smoked, but now it doesn't matter. I even wish I could buy him cigarettes.  You see, what I thought mattered so much didn't… doesn't... because all that matters is loving David.

I recently heard the statistic that 1 in 6 youth have attempted suicide.  One in six.  And my heart broke all over again.  I need to make a difference.  I need to help.  If I can make a difference so that there is one mother or one father who doesn't have to bury their son or daughter, I will have succeeded…

...because David won't come back.

My heart is broken and I don't want you to have to endure this heartbreak.  I don't want to lose another child.

I believe that many people who take their lives in their 20's, or 30's, or 40's, have walked the cliff of suicide for many years, trying desperately not to slip over the edge into the darkness.  I know they can learn skills and create a life of joy. I know they can turn their back on the edge and never walk it again!  I know, because I have been able to do this.

I've seen it happen! 

So in honor of David and his big heart... this is my work I am called to do.  

And I can't wait to wrap Davids' big heart and my arms around your sons and daughters.